365 Complete

 LET'S DO THIS But first, sleepies. Nighty night. 

Today, I printed off some yearly calendars to hang up on my corkboard. Goals and deadlines that will undoubtedly make lovely whooshing sounds as they fly past. I'll figure out a way to get stuff done and forgive myself. Maybe. Self-loathing is so much easier than processing understanding.  Now to do it all again in my planner. Is it weird to be excited about a planner? Perhaps. But not when it's this planner: https://shop.adamjk.com/products/unsolicited-advice-2021-planner Every year for the past 5 years, each page has made my life a little happier. Can't recommend it enough, even for the planner aficionados among us.  Here's the website I used if any of y'all are interested in full-year calendars as a tangible thing. It's great for planning for release dates with podcasts, videos, etc.  https://www.calendarpedia.com/2021-calendar-pdf-templates.html

Part of making goals is figuring out the steps to attain said goals. It's the SMART system that your high school guidance counselor probably introduced you to but you didn't pay attention because you knew everything already. Or it's what that Inspo-Porn Instagrammer pretends doesn't exist because magic and fairy tales brand better. My passive aggressive point is- I need to figure out how the hell to actually make these resolutions actionable.  Yet again, this post is probably just for me. But here you are, still reading it. Haha- sucker. Get ready to be bored.      1. Exercise                         This is the most classic and I think the hardest of my resolutions. There are always mental hurdles, but there's a lot going on here and a lot of processing to be done. I've been in physical therapy most of 2020 and I have finally been cleared to do some basic workouts. I have an elliptical at home whi...

Apparently today is the spiritual death of 2020. If astrologers are to be believed, the eclipse taking place in the southern hemisphere is supposed to clear out a bunch of stagnant energy, allow us to let go of sadness and pain that have been holding us back from growing, and signal the true end of Trump's influence.  That all sounds nice, but a cosmic panacea for our earthly woes is far too grand a thing on which to pin all of one's hopes and dreams. All the same, it can't hurt to at least make the effort to meet the universe halfway. My goal is to make 2021 a transformative year. As such, I have decided upon a two-pronged attack: 1. Love what you love : A friend of mine pointed out that I seem afraid to take up space, apologizing for nothing and taking back what I say. My therapist has been encouraging me to share what I know about certain topics on YouTube, and start teaching in a different way. My social space feels fractured between my different hobbies and I expend a ...

I tend to get bogged down in the details. Or I lose motivation. Or I get sick. The point is I don't complete anything. I want a way to keep my on track and accountable something every day of the year. Thus, this blog. I obviously know that no one reads blogs anymore. I'm not a caveperson. But this is just something for me and maybe the few people who happen to wander here. Maybe such a chronicling will eventually help our alien overlords decide how best to motivate our weird little human bodies to do anything. (And with that, goodbye solo reader- you shall be missed.) I don't know what I'm going to try to achieve or accomplish. But it should be something that's done daily. My daily activities should be far more stimulating than Twitter and refreshing YouTube. I'll figure it out. I will overdo undoubtedly, because that is what I do, but maybe something will stick.